Defenitly I won't be bothered to go to office.

I will call; no; send a sms that i am sick to my TL.

I will stay home. will cook food for mom. send off father to office.. and I plan to have a small quarell with my sister

she could have all my stuff after my death (I would write this to her; i want she to find it out after my death )

well.. I am done with my first phase. Mom , dad, and sis are off to work

Now I am alone at home , I am not that nerves thinking of dying.

I am hoping it will be painless.

I have a number of people whom I would love to talk to on my last day

1) PY :- to say I am sorry for hurting him.

2) KP will be fine. She was something more than a friend to me. a elder sister ? I dont know . I think she know that I love her

3) Bubbly might miss me. {I dnt want her to return my books in case i am dead today.. she can have them and please do take your books from my shelf}

4) I would call Rishi and tell that i have mailed him his book back

5) tell Riaz - to stay cool ; i might risk to tell him to start respecting girls (I dont think i will say that to him ; why should i bother to make it worse for me on my last day )

6) tell vishy that i will miss him

I dont have any savings or any deposit of which i have to worry about. I have already withdrawn my complete salary for this month . so no botheration there too; I want my parents to have the rest of my money .

There are no secrets in my life which i fear, will die with me.

7) I want to have a cool , smooth conversation with you today . Please dont tell me you are busy .. I might not get another change to call you . I dont want to tell you I love you today as i dont want to hear back k, thankyou etc, and today I dont want you to fall in love with me too .

I was just thinking we could have a sweet friendly talk. give me a hug, I would love that .

I will take an auto , go to ambrocia and buy a large cake and icecream pack.

come back home and watch a movie and I will enjoy my cake and icecream.

8) If its defenitly sure , today is my last day.. i want to call a special person , I want to tell him , even though he never approved me, I love him , I had always thought of the fruits i will be buying for him well apples mostly being he a diabetic. I wanted to take care of him , I always dreamed of him being one of my bestfriend in the house.

After this call, I dont think I will want to talk to anyone.

Now , Its all done

I am ready for the last journey of this life. I wish I will have another birth also as a good hearted human being. I still prefer to be a veggy in my next birth too.I will not mind if i am born as a girl again . I will not mind if i am born on some western countries. I wanna resume my reading quite early next time. I want to cover all including Tintin , hardy boys , famous five etc.

I hope I will be able to use (talk, write, read ) english properly . I hope I will write something really WOW someday ...

I want to have a butterfly tattood in my body.

I look forward to have loving parents and couple of siblings.

Now that it is sure , you were never my soul mate , in the next birth also I wont be getting you as i may take birth early ; infact years early than you might die. Now i know not to have hope for you in the next birth; i would be fine, I hope so.

Don't miss me (its a lie, I don't want to tell you that; I want you to miss me, I want you to say atleast once that you loved me)
Now that 'the problem' is sloved itself. I wouldn't be bugging you at late nights asking 1000 questions of which you dont know the answers. But i wish you to go for your PhD now ; have fun . be safe . and fall in love

I would change my Orkut update as "Ready for a new begining . ."

OOps .. I am ready to go

But again before starting my new journey , I want to have a good long dreamless sleep.

Life doesn't end like this ; it has, in its store, surprise for all of us.